my heart starts pounding....

still...

till this dayy....

I hate that i still cry when i look at a photograph of you.

of you and I.

Ive never EVER been this hurt by someone.

Ive never felt this much pain.

Look at what youve done to me...

sometimes i dont even know myself....

it kills me to know that my whole life changed the moment we became something....

People still ask me about you..

If i still felt something for you.....

I smile... then i say.. "no"

Lies!

We made something for ourselves...

we created our own little world...

we were our own bestfriends...

we planned our future out...

actually YOU did.

but i was happy just listening to you over the phone when i was 8hrs away from you....

My heart still aches for you...

i dont know why.. but it does...

Promises!

i promised to never take off my band....

you promised to never take off your band....

yours BROKE.

i dont think mine EVER will...

Confessions!

I took mine off last year.

i thought if i took it off it would prove that you didnt mean a thing to me anymore.

i thought if i took it off i wouldnt think about you anymore...

i was so wrong!

ONE month later....

Its back on my left wrist.

i will never forget that year and that age...

The best and the worst of my life so far....

Fell deeply and completely in love and gotten my heart broken and shattered into a million pieces.....

But i would NEVER trade a single moment for anything.

It made me who i am today

whoever i am today.....

so thank you for being in my life...

i mentioned ALOT of the bad parts because the BEST part of us and of you would be too painful for me to share....